The Greatest Loss

Today I think I have fully realized all that I am losing. My heart is broken over the loved ones I lose from this whole divorce. I wasn't ready to stop trying but I can't change anyone, especially those that I love. I am so sad about losing the family that I had gained by the union. Now none of them will speak to me or even look at me. They wouldn't even before Josh gave me the divorce papers. I will never get to see my new little nephew, Colton. I'll never get to see my darling little Chloe again (Josh's little sister who adores me). The pain that my little siblings have had to go through and that I have had to witness is heart wrenching. I've never been so grateful that I never had to worry about my parents getting a divorce because it would have destroyed me as a child. My parents never fought in front of us and have never contemplated divorce. I knew I was lucky but I never realized how much until I had to tell my little brother that Josh and I were getting a divorce and I saw the shock that went through his body and the tears that streamed down his cheeks as he sobbed. Little children shouldn't have to experience such pain. Their hearts are too pure. I'm worried for little Chloe because I know that haven't told her yet about Josh and I and it's going to crush her. Poor little girl cried her eyes out when she thought here parents were saying they didn't love me. It just isn't fair to those precious little children. Thank God for their resilient little souls. Children are able to forgive like no adults ever could. If only we adults could learn a little from them maybe my marriage wouldn't be ending. There is nothing I can do to save it. I know because I have tried, but I can be resilient. That is where our faith and hope comes into play. It can make us have the desire to trudge on and and stay standing, and I WILL do it! There is a link if you click on the title of this blog entry. The link was an inspiring little message for me and I hope it can be for you too.