Zippidy-do-da-day!

So I think that I can really move on now. I had some questions about certain things and I had a nice conversation with Pres. Bateman, the Provo Temple temple president. He answered my two questions very clearly and I knew that I could trust what he said. I think I knew the answers in my heart all along but I didn't want to accept them for reasons of my own, but hearing it come from his mouth I had to accept it. No, I was not questioning God or the church. It had to do specifically with some things that Josh had said to me. Anyway, now that I have those answers I feel such a weight lifted off of me. I don't really feel hurt anymore. There may be days when I do...I guess...I don't know, but as of right now I feel peace and I don't hurt anymore. If anything I feel more sorry for Josh. I think now I will be able to be myself and not crash if I end up seeing Josh around. It might throw me off since it will be the first time since 5 days before he gave me the divorce papers, but I believe that now I'll be okay after it. I can't explain how good it feels to feel like myself again. The real me is coming back :) I feel the desire to sing and sew again. I want to record music again! I've recorded music again! I feel peace. I was guided to speak to the temple president by a friend who was an answer to prayer. I was having a super rough night a few nights ago and I didn't know what to do or where to turn. I ended up on my knees pleading with the Lord to let there be someone to talk to to sort out my thoughts. I pleaded for the pain to be taken away. I felt so utterly empty and the hurt was so deep. I have never known such terrible anguish to my heart, mind, and spirit. Then I get online and a dear friend happens to get on at one-thirty in the morning. Poor woman was so sick she couldn't sleep and so she got online. I ended up talking to her and with something I said she suggested I talk to the temple president. I did and since I have I have felt no pain or hurt. I honestly only feel sorrow for Josh. What a beautiful answer to prayer! I didn't even have to wait 15 minutes to find the path to the answer to my prayer. God is merciful. He does not want us to suffer and be unhappy. We really are here to be instruments in the Lord's hands. I'm sorry that my friend had to suffer such sickness so that she could be an answer to my prayer, but boy, am I grateful!!! Ah, it feels so nice to feel true happiness again!