Apology

Wow. I realized yesterday that I was doing something I shouldn't be doing. I have been speaking to a handful of people about the relationship I had with Josh and saying more then I should. I justified doing this because I was hurting and I thought that if people knew the truth about things and what happened in our relationship it was okay. I realize now that it is not. Though very soon Josh and I will no longer be married those things that happened are a part of our relationship and in that relationship I was his wife. I have no right to speak of our marriage (especially details) to others even if the things mentioned may be true. There used to be a trust between us and those many experiences happened during that time of trust. Just because that trust is now gone doesn't mean I can divulge whatever I feel like ranting about. I apologize to all of you if I have said anything to you that I shouldn't have. I realized that I wouldn't want Josh telling personal things about me to his close family or friends. Though things have not worked out the way I would have liked them to I still need to respect Josh as a person. I apologize for being so selfish and excusing it because of all the pain that is inside. I hope and ask that those who know particulars as to what happened will keep them to themselves. It would be wonderful to receive help from all of you too! If I start to spew forth information that does not need to be shared, please, give me a gentle reminder. It will also help me to move on if you do so. Again, I apologize for my inappropriateness.