Session No. 4

I'm still going strong and on a good course. Jennifer thinks I'll need one more session and then I only need to come in for maintenance sessions if I feel I need one. I'm in another relationship and certain things can trigger memories or fears from my divorce. The person I'm dating isn't causing the fears it is just a result of of my divorce. So, my goal is to make sure I let myself feel the feelings that surface, but that I also step back and observe the what and whys of what I am feeling and that my actions to those feelings are healthy. Sometimes the action I need to take is to talk to the person involved, but that is scary business. When you open your heart like that to someone you become vulnerable, and being vulnerable means I could get hurt. As much as it scares me it's a risk I'm willing to take. If you let fear stand in your way you would never do anything and personally for myself I want to live life to its fullest, which means risks. So far, the results have been worth the risk :) So, if you have gone through or are going through something that is causing you to have fear in your heart, trust in the Lord and let him bear you up. Fear is not of God so do what it takes to remove that fear from your life. For me it has meant getting counseling and letting myself trust certain people (even though it may be scary), and praying my heart out. It has been worth it :)